Constantly Reminded....

Do you ever feel like you are reminded everyday about people whom are no longer in your life? I say this because I struggle with goodbyes and I find that every time I turn around the past and people I truly Loved as family are gone from my life, they moved on and I struggle with the constant goodbyes, the reminders that I miss them.  I say this because it is time for  Christmas shopping and I was looking through ABC distributing and  I stumbled on a cute gift from the wizard of OZ and I was reminded of my ex- mother in law. I do have some wonderful memories of her and I really wish they didn't hate me so much. I get it, don't get me wrong the fact that I divorced their son and caused them pain and being they only know half the story it makes since. I would hate me too. However, I think am I crazy for missing them. For missing the craft days and the quilting? Am I crazy for missing the time spent to develop the frail relationship we had? However I miss them all. I tried so hard to get to know them  that I am reminded of Rendell whenever I see M&M candy dispensers and Yvonne when I see  Pillsbury dough boy items. I think of Michael when I see Cars toys and Pirates anything. I remember the fun times and the good times. I remember how fun it was to surprise them with something I found. I miss that. I find I don't have that kind of relationship with my sisters and I feel like in a lot of ways that when I left Michael I also lost my sisters. Oh well life moves on. The lord always makes it work out. Everything happens for a reason.